Quickie

I can't believe it's been so long since I posted last! I know now why I had so much trouble keeping this up last semester. I really need to do better because I want Lucas to have this someday. I also like it for myself so I can remember all that goes on with him and our lives.

Now that school has started, time seems so scarce. Lucas has adapted very well to daycare and I've done okay, too. The Sunday before I went back was definitely the hardest. I guess because of the anticipation of it all. I cried all day. I cried when I would change his diaper, even, because I knew I wouldn't be able to do it all day everyday like I had been. I was just so worried that he wouldn't remember me or I would forget something big. That is still a fear of mine, but I know now he remembers me. The first day that I picked him up, he smiled at me. It was amazing!

It's been a struggle in the evenings too. We have been trying to keep him awake from the time I pick him up (usually about 4p) until 8p when he eats and goes to bed. So in the evenings, all I want to do is play with him! I don't want to do laundry; I don't want to clean; I don't want to cook. I could care less about eating supper, even! I know it's silly, but since I don't get to play during the day, I want to soak up all that time and get all the smiles out of him as possible! I've gotten better this week at just letting him spend time in his bouncer or on his mat. He's perfectly content to do that and I can still watch him and play with him and talk to him while I'm keeping my house taken care of too.

This week has been a little crazy because my new nephew was born Wednesday, March 30th, with a heart defect. When he was born, we didn't realize he had this. They didn't find it until the middle of the night Wednesday night and it's been a roller coaster of emotion and doctors since. He will have to have open-heart surgery on Tuesday at noon. It has been really scary and stressful, but he's stable and his vitals are really good. Now, it's just a waiting game and watching game until Tuesday. Please pray for my brother-in-law Josh, his wife Jana, and their son Colt. We are all very scared, but they're strong and they are already feeling the prayers being lifted on their behalf.

I'll try to post pictures and updates of him and Lucas very soon! Until now, that's our life.